A weekend of nothingness is somewhat cathartic. There's a reason why we feel better for doing nothing even though we should be doing something. And that reason is most likely to be that we can do it all tomorrow.
Except that, for the few that are like me, tomorrow very rarely comes. I'm slowly coming to the realisation that I'm a more practical person than I believed myself to be. By being somewhere, and doing something productive, I feel as though my existence on this planet is valid. Having to sit in front of a computer without any real motivation does not make my existence valid, however.
And sat in front of my computer I have been this whole weekend. It's made me feel very relaxed (i.e. I have done nothing else so I can't say I'm exhausted) but also very pensive (i.e. there is so much more I could be doing with my time). I now, at 7pm on Sunday evening, feel ready to tackle some work. However, it's too late to even try to begin to decide where to start. All day, I've been trying to motivate myself to do something that will get the adrenalin/productivity flowing which would hopefully result in work being done. Truth is, I'm not busy enough to force myself to do it all. Pressure is the name of the game I think.
Testament to this new theory begins this week. I'll be in school full time, and so time to do other niggly things is limited forcing me to do them as and when required. The clock is always ticking, but now it really kicks off as I try juggling 3 ways of life all at the same time (maybe 4, depending on how you look at it)...
Besides, the worst that can happen is that I have a few all nighters and skip a lot more meals, right...?